im zen right...

do you think i over react? becuase my flute teacher told me im very excited about everything but like in a bad way...ya know what im getting at? like im compulsive...or like "high strung" am i excitable? REALLY? DON'T call me EXCITABLE! wahh! so yeah..i meanim calm right? like zen. yeah thats totatlly me.

augh!

hey guys! hopefully some of you noticed that i wasn't here today. well i didn't cut school, as much as i would love to. I woke up with a horrible stomache pain and could barely make it through breakfast-sitting down. But then my mom kicked me out of the house("you're going to be late for school!") SO... I was walking painfully and everything started moving and i felt really dizzy and light headed so i sat down in a deli. My old NURSERY SCHool teacher found me and brought me home. otherwise, i probably would have passed out on the subway. and than i downed some tynenol and I fell much better. Hope you didn't worry too much...lol, gosh i feel so important.


and if i text you text me back! jeez...I hate it when people don't. I think im going to have to add that to the awards. BEST TEXTER.


the pains of growing old(er)....you guys are all so lucky! if you know what i mean...

i dont know whether to be suprised or what

HAHAHA guys. bad stuff should happen to me more often. 6 freaking comments! wahhaha!

but really, thanks anyway you bitches :) <--- most overused smiley of mine ever! but i hate this ;) it looks like long eyelashes and i do use this on occasions: ^---^ but its special...and I stole this from iolanthe's sister :3

im so cliche.

yo yo yo and a bleat bleat bleat... (A play on words...hahaha)

okay not that i don't feel any sympathy for homelss people but there is this guy that is there every day and hes always going "god bless you, help a homelss person" and its almost funny i just want to be like dude, get a job. march into that deli or something...BUT ANYWAYS!

I am going to give all my friends bloggers or otherwise awards! this is not like a "oh, im so popular" thing its just for fun. and guys please dont get mad at me or anything like im not giving anybody the best whoring award. that goes to... we all know right? and this isn't in order of my best friends or anything, just people who come to mind, and im giving pen names out to people who might not want their name online. like "explorer the great" and "a fortunate tomato" except different...

1. claire definitely wins best hair and easy to talk to for like ur problems
2.emma gets best freakerouter award and for a person you would loveto tell your secrets to but cant...you big mouth. lol , just kidding.
3. mandy obviously wins nicest person (especially for awkward jokes, where other people just stare blankly) and best story teller. trust me i would know...(?) but i dont really know
4. iluvcats gets best dressed (and best whisperer)
5. iolanthe would get most easy to gossip about people you hate and somebody i cant get mad at...grr...actually I can't really get seriously mad at any of my friends...im so pathetic :(
6. selena would get funniest without knowing it
7. idalis gets most contagious laugh and most empathetic
8. nomi gets best sarcastic remarks or stupid things that make every1 else laugh
9. livvi(how do u spell it?) gets most unemotional award. i mean in a good way. right?
10. in hae gets awesomest house and best curser
11. milo=fail
12. everyone else im sort of friends with gets an award for making me laugh. and everyone else they meet...chuckle.

aren't i so popular. lol. i wish. DEPRESsEd. ^---^well see you...

hello

ha. you guys must have missed me. but anyway I found myself getting so nervous today. like, I can't even go in a subway and not have a miniature heart attack every time someone walks near me. its just uggh. im sorry if some of you already know about this but i had to "blog it out".

but I was mad too. about people with stupid attitudes, sometimes, i fell the urge to give those folks a jolly old swat ON THE REAR or a kick in the ass. whichever. (and stephenie meyer pisses me off too, but lets not get into that :P).

and this doesn't get me mad but I can't really get seriously angry anymore, like I exaggerate my voice and then people don't believe me. and SOMEBODY... cough*iolanthe*cough... always cracks up when I get mad at her.

and people need to understand when someone is trying to be really, really hard to be really, really nice to them. and some people need to stop the fishing for compliments.

"im not smart"
"im not pretty"
"im not popular"
"im not THE AMAZINGLY FEMININE RYAN ROSS!"

whatever. i never give people compliments that way. i don't really give compliments. at least not sincere ones. so im a liar. DONT ABANDON ME! your mothers lie too! there is no tooth fairy or big green monster with unplesant facial hair.

lol, no one gets me. except for you emma...

im back. kisses!

so guys, i am determined to update on both blogs today. hmm...okay.
there is this little girl on my building who I met yesterday. she was very okay with one exception.
SHE WOULD NOT GO AWAY.
Im serious, she stayed in our apartment for 3 frikin hours. and we didn't even invite her. her mom just knocked on the door, daughter in hand. like WTF. nobody does that. And get this, after she went home(her brother came to pick her up) she came back.
"I can eat dinner with you guys!" I almost fainted. and Iwas trying to be very nice and subtley suggest she go home.
me: so, do you want me to take you back to your apartment?
her: no, i want to stay here.
me: (clenches teeth and secretly thinks omgosh, you stupid time waster) DO YOU WANT TO PLAY A GAME LITTLE GIRL?(its calledd sudden death)
just kidding, i didn't say that, at least not in all caps. lol.

I mean I love my friends but chances are if I had to live with them or see them EVERY DAY FOR 24 HOURs, i would start to get annoyed.

anyway, that girl was a major piss-off for me but im over that.

and if she comes back, im pretending not to be there. evil? yeah, wait until you meet her.

damn guy!

what kind of lowlife punk steals an ipod from a little girl?! yeah, you heard me! no i did not watch someone get jumped. I was jumped. by a scummy asshole, who clearly thinks that it was a moral thing to do. Yeah, well he is going to have bad karma for the rest of his life. and believe me its already fucked up. hey, i might be cursing but hell i am mad! damn... i should have screamed. he got my ipod! shit, shit shit. I can't believe this. they took me to the police station and everything. and my ipod is probabky not coming back. wow.

so guys. always keep your valuables in your pocket. I learned a lesson.

is it just me or some people just assholes? okay, so today at the hunter test(which was so hard!) there was this guy who could not keep his big mouth to himself. He was insulting someone based on sexual orientation! WHO DOES THAT. like he said to this guy who talked like a girl, really sadistically, "your voice needs maturing" and that guy was annoying too, he was like "im annoying! thats the point!" wtf. That alone just annoys me.

and heres the thing. HUNTER MADE US SIGN A CONTRACT. it basically said something like, you cannot even open your mouth about this otherwise we will DISQUALIFY YOU. I was like so weirded out. and then this security guard started yelling at the kids LOOK AT THE NUMBER ON YOUR CARD!

awkward

awkward peOPLE. they never will dissapear as long as I live. here are some things (i think) an awkward person does.

1. when someon's joke isn't funny they have to say something. ( cant you go with the flOW?, lol me and my stupid phrases)
2. they laugh when no one else is, like really hard and when its like silent. AWKWARD. actually i do that. alot.
3.when you tell them something they're like "um.. okay...(why the f*** do I care?)"

I never said awkward people are bad. duh.

okay you guys!

i love you guys! ur frikin awesome! I mean my friends... I had no one to talk to for the past idont know what days and then you just show up and kickass! even my sorta friends. love you! okay, so im not the most popular muffin in the cake shop but i still have a few loyal customers... if you can't figure what i just said, perfectly ok, a normal reaction would be like WTF did she just type.

"abscence makes the heart grow fonder", okay so i've quoted that beforee but damn its true! I missed everyone. cry. this vacation has been torture. I nfact im goin to write you a im so glad im back sogng.








uh. wtf is the song?




oh sorry, ill post it another time. im too busy chatting. lol. oh and by the way, i need more computer smiles like : ) >_< and stuff like that, so if you could comment me some, that would be amazing.